Open Me Up

Brainwork

2010-06-20T22:09:00.002+10:00

The first week has passed moderately quick. Neither slow nor fast which I guess it's a good thing afterall. Peaceful and thank God for nice colleagues so far... hopefully they will be nice for the next few years. A few people asked me "how do you find your job?" My answer for the time being is "alright." No job is perfect I guess but you just have to find satisfaction and joy in the things that you are doing in the marketplace. Sometimes it's hard challenging difficult and not easy at all but however, they are meant to be there to challenge yourself to another level or I would say increase your capacity. Anyway these stuff is what you learnt through the scriptures and the church so come to church to be empowered by Jesus and God! Seriously A R Bernard's msg on the cultural mandate is really good stuff... analogous to cough syrup!

Thank God for June. I got my 7 days leave followed by the upcoming 2 weeks of holiday extending from June to early July and not forgetting the Taiwan trip early this year and the family-orientated-yet-not-stressed-job during the first 5 months. Thankful as well for the well wishes, gifts and great friends who were put in this season of my life. Plus the new transition into another new industry which I believe and pray that it will be something that God wants me to do.

"We live by faith, not by sight." 2 Cor 5:7

12

2010-06-14T00:25:00.001+10:00

Healing is all I need

2010-06-05T06:14:00.003+10:00

It's 4.15am Singapore time. I can't sleep. All these years of negative thoughts comes from one source - the rifts of my heart. Having a tendency to push/shove/cast these aside with ignorance is not really a wise thing to do. Having to say that, I didn't have the courage to face them either. Reading a few times of awakening the dead plus what A R Bernard has preached serve a great piece of advice but seriously requires a lot from you. No one can help except me myself and God.

2010-06-02T02:06:00.006+10:00

Awesome! First day of leave... Actually I'm not at all excited. Ha. Anyway A R Bernard's preaching on the finale night was eye-opening. Seriously brought me out of my situation at that 1 hour moment plus the 1st night with Pastor Kong was etched in my mind.

ok.

12 days of leave.

19 days of new working life.

15/16 days of downunder

yeah~

2010-05-04T01:27:00.001+10:00

closed friends will be there for you even if one didn't mentioned a word. A simple act of concern, an sms or call, an email or even human touch will always make a difference in any circumstances. But if it doesn't happened, run to God. He is where you can find solace...

downcast yet alive

2010-05-02T20:49:00.005+10:00

Standing on a small hill that stands at the crevices of the biomedical hub drawn my attention to the facades and contrast of catchy and mild colors during the surprisingly-cool evening night. Prior to that, I was struggling on the thread mill to run at least 3 kilometres for that day but failed miserably at a distance of 2.8 kilometres partly of the many items that are swirling in my head. Irregardless of that, thankfulness is still thankfully in my mind. Thankful of how God has brought me to this organization. Thankful of God that I'm not stressed up by the work load. Thankful of the nice colleagues that He has placed in midst and the list just goes on. Time is short-lived and I guess for the next few weeks, I hope to enjoy the last few glimpses of what God has to offer before I'm challenged to a completely different experience. It's not easy I guess but as what Willy has mentioned, we need to be always thankful of what God has done in our lives.

The service today was a different one. Great I would said. I wanted to go down but I didn't. That service was edifying to my spiritman. It did bring some encouragement. I was tired I guess partly these past few weeks has been a struggle in the way I'm thinking. The words in the sermon that were preached forth, the words that were amplified during the prayer time, the lyrics that were sang during worship, were surprisingly meaningful. No idea why but I know it's a journey and this journey is going to be longer than I expected... Yea it will be but it will be in His hands.

2010-04-27T00:17:00.003+10:00

I guess most of us have heard of life journeys of how less well-to-do or even the less-privileged people who managed to do well in their studies and careers. And I'm truly happy and inspired by their perseverance, endurance, and sheer will-power. Most of them is bounded by their limited financial status and it is always so hard especially when they are young. I guess no one will understand the suffering they have gone through unless you are the one who experienced it. Suffering? or disability? But ultimately you have to choose to overcome it or be defeated by it. I guess the wealthy may not understand the plight and the agony but I believe they have their fair share of challenges but I guess it's not as bad as being financially unstable. Why am I talking abt this? I saw a blog entry and he mentioned of how tough to uphold the family financial status and he has to sign on as a regular irregardless of whether he likes it or not. This is really someone whom we can respect. These people tend to be more humble, down to earth, understanding when it comes to finances. We can do more if we have more cash but well... it all depends on God who has the best plan for each of us.

btw it's just some random post.

reminder

2010-04-22T01:28:00.002+10:00

Sometimes I wonder why I told him something personal but I guess there won't be next time.

draw a line

2010-03-17T01:00:00.002+10:00

sometimes one wishes to say but holds back mainly it is God's work that we are doing as long as your attitude and motives are right. at the end of day, God looks at your heart not what you do. So are you doing for God, or for yourself?

True Colors

2010-03-16T23:01:00.003+10:00

Sometimes you must look beneath the outer shell to find the real person inside him or her. That's real life.

Introverted: a character flaw that was "despised"?

2010-03-09T01:37:00.003+10:00

Ok... Its nothing serious. Just suddenly thought abt it as I'm lying on my bed trying to go to sleep. I remembered someone introducing me to some new visitor and I was surprised by what he had said. "He is very quiet. He seldom talk to people." Woah! That blew off my mind. Well, that came the source of the post. Is being Introverted something to be despised of? Many years in church many pastors had shared abt their testimonials of how they are Introverted and yet they are changed by God and used mightily by Him which is awesome. Though I have not reached the status yet, I would dare to say that I'm trying to apply the word of God in my daily life. One great eg is pastor zhuang whom has really left and still leaving an impression in my mind. He shared many times of how he is shy and Introverted but was challenged by God to step out to influence and help and love the people around him. Despite that an introverted nature is part of our intrinsic system in our character, we still and we can make a difference in the lives out there if we are willing to do it... That's one of the attitudes that every matured christian should demonstrate. Disappointed to a certain extent esp someone who holds a certain status, I just have to smile and forget. Yes the introduction is partially true, but is that the way we edify our people? That's another issue. But again, we shouldn't be legalistic and judgmental but let forgiveness take over our worldly mindset. Or we shouldn't forgive cos no one is perfect but to be forbearing and not taking any offense at all.

Be proud of who you are. Why? It is because you are a child of God.

Moved

2010-02-25T01:09:00.002+10:00

changed residences, departed, emigrated, gone away, left, migrated, relocated, removed, transferred, vacated

http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/moved?qsrc=2889

Endure till the end

2010-01-13T15:06:00.005+10:00

Many things lost in life can be restored; however, time misused can never be recovered - John Bevere

Reading the first 3 chapters of "Driven by Eternity" within one night sketches a few glimpses of eternity and the above sentence just froze my synapses a while.This is the second time I heard of this message and really got me into pondering. Yeah... thinking... especially the first half and not really much about the latter part. This is gotten to be my prayer for this year. Restoration...

The Year Ahead

2010-01-11T19:54:00.003+10:00

I guess the transition to 2010 wasn't much a clear line. I have no idea why but just had that kinda of perspective.

Beginning the new year in Taipei was decided within days that can be counted with your five fingers and having that urge to escape all the job tremors was dispelled when some dramatic people to people relationships were thwarted by the over controlling attitude but sadly in a negative manner. Controversially, it was good and bad concurrently but anyways, a break is necessary to loosen the tightened knots inside my configuration.

Certain days in taipei were surged with emotions despite of the mountains, greenery, lakes, streams, fresh air... Truly love the way the people carried themselves with no clear agenda. The world seriously needs to learn the good things from one another.

2010 will be a great year ahead, not just great but greater. By faith I believe.

Open or opened or "opened"?

2009-11-04T01:15:00.002+10:00

I prayed for opened doors. A door was opened but I wasn't sure whether I should enter it. (Btw thanks for the folks who prayed for me. I truly appreciated it from the bottom of my heart) Sometimes a door can be opened but it may not be the right door for you especially when you felt in your heart that you shouldn't go for it but at the same time, you wanted to go for it desperately...

Hiatus

2009-10-26T00:04:00.002+10:00

a fine line in life

2009-09-19T00:35:00.002+10:00

this line has always been broken and amended again and again. it seems to be always fine but not always but it will eventually be fine...

crossroads

2009-09-15T02:30:00.002+10:00

2009-08-10T14:14:00.001+10:00

Our God He lives forever
He reigns with power and love
Let earth bow down before Him
For He is exalted

We look to Yahweh, Yahweh
Forever Yahweh, Yahweh

Our hope is God Almighty
His love is greater than all
Lift high the God of heaven
Give all the honour

We look to Yahweh, Yahweh
Our hope is Yahweh, Yahweh

And He shall reign forever
He shall reign forever
He shall reign forever
And ever
Our God

=)

2009-08-04T21:01:00.000+10:00

When Pastor Jeffrey from JPCC preached about leadership, he mentioned something about the authority over the leaders over you. Somehow or rather, it just caught my attention and in a split second, I felt that I could relate to my position in my current workplace. Well... I guess it is not about pride cos humility is one of the keys to life. But this leader of mine seems not to be moving at the pace that I'm in. And there I was kinda of disappointed of the role that he should be responsible to uphold. Not trying to be judgemental, other people had acknowledged his weakness and our boss has spoken to him but things seem to be the same.

Hmmm... I'm sure there is a reason why God has placed me of where I am now. Looking back, I have indeed enlarged my capacity for greater things ahead... i mean in my workplace. 3 more months,I might be taking another project and by hearing what my superior told me this afternoon, I was indeed flattered by her slightly-positive comments. Almost complaining of submitting my resignation letter to now, the trinity and His Church had indeed play a very crucial pivotal roles in what I'm doing in the marketplace. Though it may seem small and well... still oblivious of what lies ahead, I know that I have to always learn how to place my trust in the One above.

Love

2009-07-18T04:03:00.002+10:00

Happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less. Give love to everyone and requiring none in return

Woah... it really inspires me...

witnessing

2009-07-16T01:30:00.003+10:00

It's always sad to see people of higher value not realising their potential in the marketplace. You just need someone with an authority to exert influence to these people to elevate their status...

I love A R Bernard's preaching...

Unity in Diversity!

2009-07-09T23:14:00.018+10:00

Indonesia, a home to approximately 240 million people, is one of the 4th most populous nation in the world... well... Jakarta is the first stop of our field trip, arriving at the Soekarno-Hatta International Airport at around 5pm. Jakarta's time zone is one hour before us even though its coincidentally an hour flight or less. Well... it wasn't a love at first sight the moment we touched down. No clear blue sky. An airport of mediocrity. Stale air? Haha. But time changed my perspective a week in the archipelago of cultural diversity.

Happy juice makes everyone happy

Night scene of one facet of Bandung. Simply reminded me of Mount cootha. And I was simply sitting there having a romantic dinner enjoying the cool mountain air with the candle lights all over the outdoor restaurant...

Little Red riding hood that looks angry?

Simply breathtaking. Fresh air. Beautiful mountains. Taken during the early mornings. We stayed there before we went to river rafting. Notice down there there were a number of villas and houses. Nobody stays I assume cos didn't see any single soul out there or perhaps we came during the weekdays and these places might be escapism during weekends. And this house seems to have pretty interesting stories during the night.

Breakfast I guess. Its brown rice in the pandan leave. Nice food which was cooked using overused oil that left yr throat rusty.

A shot taken at Tangkuban Perahu, the only crater in West Java that can be accessible all the way by car to its rim. Btw its DORMANT volcano. not some jalapang volcano. HAHA

Group shot with emanating fumes behind...

Crater

冬季恋歌

Notice up there are several huts... we had our lunch in one of these cooling shades

A view from Willy's house located in the heart of Jakarta. Taken during the first day of the trip.

Jakarta does has gigantic enormous shopping malls sprawling all over the city. Sprawling is not a word to use. Never mind. Ha!

Krispy Kreme

Willy and Erick

Shot taken after our first dinner the moment we touched down

A platter of great food

Great ppl

Mr Twitter...

Sg Terminal 1. Valueair.

I need holidays!

WE!

2009-07-08T02:22:00.008+10:00

This photo captured my attention when I was browsing my files...

WOW... They changed so much over the years... now become like...

*whistle* (becos become handsomer n prettier!)

;)

1/7

2009-07-05T20:24:00.005+10:00

It was nearly 5 in the afternoon. A shower of rain was drizzling on Hospital Avenue. It was yet another day of feeding the various PHAs, LCLs and CTLs but the heart was not solely on these immortalized cell lines. Reflections over the past few days have been concurrently capturing my attention... and as I was plodding along the pavement lies an azure-tinted skyscraper a few miles from my apperception. It seems to be looming as a giant over the streets and there I am, cogitating over the issues in the soft tissue under the skull. Different shades of gray were hanging on the skyline which were analogous to the mental state that I'm holding to. More and more passersby start to appear from nowhere as the distance towards the station diminished.

An aberrant novelty experience indeed.

indo again!

2009-07-03T02:30:00.003+10:00

Met up with one out of the 4 interviewees and he is an indonesian. Hmm... Is God trying to tell me something? Hmmm....

Ok. Back to powerpoint. Felt so unready. So many to read. So many to remember. 3.30pm presentation... (eyes rolling)

The title of the presentation is .....

Enhancing the in vivo expansion of adoptively transferred EBV-specific CTL with lymphodepleting CD45 monoclonal antibodies in NPC patients

chim...

Bye Wei2

2009-07-02T03:47:00.005+10:00

Fresh from the oven... Lomo somemore...

Anyway, wei2 is going to lucerne, a city in Switzerland. Have fun! Go read my letter and photo and scarf and beanie!

I remembered last year very vividly the moment I stepped into the departure hall after letting the officer checked the passport and into the duty free zone, a feeling told me "You can't go back already..." I was liked "erm... hmmm...." No fear, no trepidation. Nothing at all. On the contrary, seriously I'm not really looking forward cos... I have just enough for the tuition fees, food, accomodation, tats all. fullstop. Dun ever think of travelling. And I have never ever sit on a aeroplane before. Haha. DUN LAUGH. YES YOU! And virtually you have nothing! But praise God. He is always with me throughout the entire year! Amen!

And later there is WORK!!!

its 2am. few more hours to say Hi to NCCS...

No more pass-on! Haha... Hopefully I'm able to finish reading soon. Looks interesting. Thx peeps for these stuff! I'm glad God turns things around!

1.33333 years ago...

2009-07-01T01:22:00.003+10:00

So distinct difference...

Change is constant...

Swine and pearls

2009-06-26T03:01:00.002+10:00

What I've learnt tonight made me realised that I NEED to forget what happened last night and the lousy stuff in the past...

hmmm

2009-06-25T02:05:00.002+10:00

Your net worth can sometimes be determined by what you have done in the past but sometimes or most of the time it can be God's timing or it can be both.

higher

2009-06-21T03:18:00.003+10:00

I was convicted to love people more... people whom I'm not close to... convicted to love even more to people whom I'm close to. It serves as a reminder after pastor mentioned that being a matured believer, you need to be broken for others... to love ppl more... yes we need ppl to love us back but we need to be selfless... cant always receive all the time but always bear in mind that we need to give to others... Was disappointed a few wks back... naturally, comparisons are always in yr mind. Not that I want to compare, but it was evident for one to witness. But last night BS just nudge me a bit further... to love even if they dun love u back. to give even if they dun give u back. to bless even if they dun bless u back...

yes.. throw away yr self. Haha

SIN - JKT - BDO - JKT - SIN

2009-06-14T22:33:00.007+10:00

I am on a plane across a distant sea
But I carry You in me

Albertine by Brooke Fraser

The book of revelations in front of my own eyes. Several miles away from the distant land. A half-drank plastic cup of water at the corner. The lyrics start to take effect in my soul...

Many times I fail God but yet He still loves me. He still embraces my withered spirit. Man fails but God never fails. It holds truly deep in my heart.

Savory food. Loads of travelling. Greenery scenery. Great people. Interesting safari. Refreshing rafting. Beautiful houses. Awesome hosts! Intriguing culture. Fascinating happenings. All in a week.

Time really flies.

D

2009-06-01T23:27:00.006+10:00

If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
Make you believe
Make you forget

Matt Nathanson

It seems to be a paradox to me, personally. The more I listen, the more it seems to be so real. One minute it doesn't seem to have any influence but next, it seems that it is so relevant to that particular instance even till now. I guess history won't happen again. At least one is prepared hopefully...

Milk is good for YOU

2009-05-31T23:28:00.003+10:00

Can't wait to leave some place SOON. HA. Hopefully it will be relaxed and an ideal place of escapism. HOPEFULLY.

Song of Solomon BS 1

2009-05-31T01:52:00.003+10:00

When one is really really really, say 1000 times, busy that you hardly spend time with your friends, family, loved ones etc, the time that you are going to spend must be of quality level and not compromised, not just quantity alone. Just a random thought.

Look Up When Things Are Unexpected

2009-05-18T20:27:00.005+10:00

Thanks pal a zillion for the gift and making an effort to walk all the way to Borders when the day was ending and not forgetting the hands that carry all the way to Singapore.

Pal... you are REMEMBERED!

2009-05-11T00:48:00.002+10:00

Most of the sundays at this hour somehow or rather the spirit of sianness just attacked at Achilles heel. I gotta to do something abt it man. And reading the word of God does help but sometimes didnt manage to do it. Horrible I am. Anyway, another colleague of mine who joins the same time as me is going to leave soon becos of some challenging circumstances and no choice I have to take over everything. How sian is that? But I know it happens for a reason. It's getting better now compared to the initial few mths where I was shrivelled up at the end of the day where all my energy was sucked by some powerful forces. Well... it is good I guess.

Its monday tmr.

A new exciting day! How deceiving I am! Ha!

I wish I am on high ground

2009-05-10T01:43:00.001+10:00

1Cor1212

2009-05-03T02:39:00.004+10:00

I wonder how do the different parts of the body of Christ work together in unity? So I went to check it out and it was in 1 Cor 12 from verse 12 onwards. Everyone is different. Do we accept the differences that we have? or just remain oblivious abt it?

Trying hard is one thing. Doing nothing is another thing. but coming out with something good is a good thing.

The love of Christ constrained us. So constrain the love of Christ to the people around us irregardless of whether they accept u or not. Its hard sometimes though but it can be done. Say so easy but not easy actually. Ha

Gone.. just like that

2009-04-21T01:12:00.004+10:00

I was doing DNA extraction from ard 2 plus to 6pm when suddenly, approximately 5.55pm when I took out the tubes from the centrifuge, I realised I forgot to label.

4 HOURS GONE!

gone within a few seconds of not labelling...

and I have to repeat again tmr plus more stuff for my agenda tmr.

WOWOW

2009-04-14T00:13:00.003+10:00

9.30am till 6pm... erm... eight and a half hours. AMAZING! some more without lunch break! CONTINOUS/CONTINUAL SOMEMORE!

Guess wat? it is one of the numerous times...

"=)"

Directionless

2009-04-12T02:20:00.003+10:00

I was on my way back home and saw this blind man boarding bus 52 with the help of a nurse at the bus stop. He managed to find a seat without much help and managed to get off from the bus and managed to walk along the pathway smoothly. And I was sitting behind with full of things going in my mind, pondering abt directions in my life and thinking, "This man seems to have a compass of where he is going" till now...

2009-04-08T00:40:00.002+10:00

Sometimes in life, i met a few ppl who has said very uncomfortable stuff in front of me, i mean those when u listen u will feel like "huh... why you like that?". Im not referring to anything that is relevant to character development for eg if i got attitude problem ppl correct me im fine and open with it. and im willing to change and for the past few yrs my skin has developed corns... or callous. so wun get easily petty or wadever. For such situations, the only response is "ok then." and sometimes put on a smile but in yr mind it is like storms raging winds howling ok exaggerated. but then one should always put others first. anyway For eg ppl demand something from you just becos you are working n i never rem i got anything from him. along the way, salt n pepper n vinegar was sprinkled everywhere. I was like ok bah I dun mind being generous. it is always good to give than to receive and one should always be the blessing to others. i will always make an effort to bless the ppl ard me and i will do it at the right time but demand? I just feel uncomfortable.

time pls fly

2009-04-07T00:42:00.002+10:00

Cant wait for tue to be over. as well as wed n thur...

shoo

2009-04-05T22:04:00.003+10:00

Sunday is a day where the blue spirit starts to creep into heartbeat of the soul. Oblivion tends to be triggered when E71 starts to release the alarm at 8 in the next morning. Dreadfulness starts to sink to the bottom of the soles with the power of the Monday blues at the climax.

Cast it in the name of Jesus. Go away.

2009-04-05T01:06:00.002+10:00

Every facial expression tells a different story. Behind every eyes that browse through the free daily morning tabloids, behind every glance of the cabin around that kills the curiosity in the cat within us, behind every close eyelids with their heads tilted at all directions trying to catch some unwinks late in the night, behind every stares in thin air where they are separated from the external world by their earphones and ipods, lies a soul that experienced experiences.

Forget it. I don't know what I am writing. Lol

Alan in Wonderland

2009-04-04T00:29:00.004+10:00

On one of those bright, sunny yet freezing early mornings with the icy cool wind that brushed through the crevices of the skin, it was just another mediocre day of Ls located in the heart of the varsity. Though assignments and reports were always ringing within the synapses of the neurons, one was always upbeat about what this passion can bring about - interest. Interest of the vibe that biology can stir up the spirit of the human mind.

As the seasons change with time, the seasons in your life are proportionally changed as well. The colors of the leaves materialised akin to the emotions that start to warm its own engines. It was the starting of summer. The zeal of throwing away the gears, caps and knowledge were back to square one as if reincarnation had started all over again.

Well, I'm going home, back to the place where I belong... - Chris Daughtry, 2008

Mr Time has the power to capture but one has no capability to chase after him. Eventually, it happened so quickly that I ended up working in partnership with the BSC level 2 after a month of 7 hours of transition despite of the invisible turbulences swirling in the global atmosphere. That's the works of the One in the heavenly heavens at work.

Concealed within the deceptively drab and light pink building lies one of the numerous best minds in the generations. Motivated, mad, driven, whatever you named it, sets the boundaries of life and death in the lives of the scientific committee. However, at the same time, some life experiences were learnt and gained in the collaboration with the killer of the 21st century.

Alice was at a crossroad
“Which road do I take?” she asked.
“Where do you want to go?” responded the Cheshire cat.
“I don’t know,” Alice answered.
“Then,” said the cat, “it doesn’t matter.”
- Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

It was another bright sunny morning but the watch displayed 9am. This time round, there were occasional breezes but carried the warmth of the sun as well as a different attitude that sets the difference between different walks of life. The doors closed and the train rapidly disappeared into the skyscrapers...

2009-03-29T02:03:00.002+10:00

Sometimes in life, when ppl said or did hurtful stuff to you, one's emotions will be stirred up especially when you are opened to the ppl around you. Despite of how vulnerable you are, one has to let go and continue to be who you are and do the right things that are in sync with integrity and character etc or should i say the standards in the Bible. Yea... God is always good all the time...

2009-03-28T01:31:00.003+10:00

amazing... our western counterparts are doing so well in ... erm... chinese/mandarin. how abt u? Some of them even speak like the native chinese. No dubbing I guess cos this is Singapore commercial done by the govt.

So start hitting zaobao.com

manure

2009-03-26T02:30:00.002+10:00

why is it so manure? seriously it is inching inch n inch of my mind almost every week. tat ____place is full of manure. not all of them. y like tat! i guess it will not be disclosed until the day i t_____ed. perhaps. not so sure. was listening to podcasts n reminded abt promotion from God. NOT MAN including woman. yes. promotion from GOD.

2009-03-19T01:08:00.004+10:00

I do love this photo... the superb quality embedded with professionalism. Sounded exaggerating but no doubt it is. and ... whos the suavest? Sigh... my hair is now half of it becos of ict...

I do have to work hard. No more reminiscing the laidback australian lifestyle. It is only through difficult times that you will grow as a person. I believe it applies to everyone. No more complaining. The sun rises in the morning and sets in the evening and the earth keeps on revolving. She won't stop for you ever. And so we have to discard away all our negative attitude and do whatever you can to polish the gifts that God has placed in your biochip.

Hip hip hooray! Hip hip hooray! Long life Immunotherapy!

ok. insanity is insane

2009-03-12T01:57:00.002+10:00

越过雾越过风
有过眼泪和感动
一开始祝福什么
只有未知的以后
雨或晴都匆匆
只能学习着把握。。。

2009-03-02T00:15:00.001+10:00

But you know... how I live, and what my purpose in life is.

You know my faith and how long I have suffered.

You know my love and my patient endurance.

2 Timothy 3:10

A Season for Everything

2009-03-01T01:37:00.006+10:00

This above photo was taken a couple of days after I landed in Brisbane last year. 23rd of Feb 2008. I do miss the times back then.

Back in Singapore.

Seriously I still love the Australian culture where you have really have time for yourself. I know that I have been complaining but I guess it will stop sometime soon. A season for everything and now Im back to the working mode in the research intensive environment. Worse than wat i expected. Let me vent it out. But well... I guess and I believe that there is a divine purpose of where God places you in and Im sure I will find positivity within the negativity.

Church here is good which you cant find anywhere else here on earth. Its truly the manifestations of God that brought me where I am now and not forgetting the people and friends here in Singapore.

Thats known as reverse culture syndrome.

Plus discipleship thingy... I have caught the Australian disease... but will be recovered soon hopefully.

2009-02-23T00:12:00.002+10:00

1 year 8 days ago, I was in Australia with some of the folks above and many others not shown.

I hated the slowness of the pace of life and the dead silence at night but love it at the end...

1 month 49 days ago, I reached the shores of Singapore.

I missed the place initially when I was on the expressway but dislike the too fast and intense atmosphere...

1 month 6 days ago, I started working.

I thought that research is going to be fun but in the end, it was very different from my expectation...

God seems to speak to me today during service.

Ask for revelation when you are reading the word of God.

I really need to hear from God. seriously. I was placed under a horrible person and I was wondering why.

God will make a way for you if there is no way. I dunno what it means to me at this moment of my crisis.

I miss Australia.

+ve/-ve

2009-02-17T01:14:00.003+10:00

Everyday is so busy. The first day of the 5th week is already so terribly terrible or should I say its not getting any better since the 2nd week of my working stint. Really need a breather... Dunno why I got this job cos I tot I failed miserably in the interview. Out of 10 over applicants, why they choose me? Not saying that this job is lousy but rather it is good as quite a portion are local grads. Grrr... I'm not complaining to God and I thank His providence n provision during this period where everyday retrenchment and freezing wages n manpower are getting common. The work is interesting and indeed meaningful. Prolong ppl lives leh. meaningful rite? But then behind all the looks-so-nice-in-yr-resume work, is so different becos of one real big reason which i wouldnt divulge. Everyone knows it is always present. When biopolis called for interview, I was "sian". Somemore call a few times. Sigh... The work seems to be killing me... but I guess that's where the discomfort zone is. Rem that we need to step out of our comfort zone. wow... im so positive. I guess research scientists have to go thru shitty stuff first...

2009-02-07T02:09:00.003+10:00

Having dinner with the clinical scientists and the scientists subtly make me realised that Im situated in a pit of a bottomless pit which has at least some level to stand upon. I thought that I do have a substantial volume of knowledge but gosh I have to equip myself with the real facts of the world after hearing the bypassing conversations that whiff through the air above the tabletop. Imagine u have never watched the movie "Changeling" and issues such as the adverse corruption of the security in LA back in the early 19th century and others such as edward jenner who introduces vaccination etc are mentioned in a few seconds. Imagine 3 hour dinner in Fullerton Hotel with a bunch of medical doctors and research fellows. Eye-opening experience during the last part of the event indeed but well... the truth hurts as well when research scientists are not that well-regarded in the small dot. Dun be surprised. We are somehow misled and I know that a few years back. Thank God for the decent pay for the timebeing. Next time dun ever let your children pursue a career in Science unless he got a straight scholarship to PhD or he or she wants to emigrate to US or Aussie or Canada. And yea... there are so many depressing stories of the life science condulrum and I wonder those wannabes who wanted to get into life sci courses... All thanks to the one who initiated the A-star project. For instance, I did a project on the beta cell line of the insulin secreting cells during my final sem and i was sloughing to read heaps of journals just to write the final manuscript. Thank God again that I got a high distinction but then my the other housemate who did double majors in finance and accountancy was playing games and watching movies all the time and accomplish cool grades. He's clever. Wat im stressing is that science is expensive and time-consumin compared to others... See? Haha... Im not complaining. Just to demonstrate that it is not that rosy in the long run even the healthcare and biomedical sector are still booming despite of the economic gloom. I'm alright and will be running this race with the one above.

T cell Immunotherapy

2009-02-05T00:06:00.009+10:00

Ok. Obviously honeymoon is over. Im currently in training mode, learning various relevant techniques pertaining to cancer immunology.

The scope involves searching and filtering the yellow cells known as T regulatory cells. Mind you. They are found in YOU. These cells help to prevent our immune system to attack our own cells. By stimulating them with some virus (EBV), they can be useful to fight cancer and prolong the lives of patients with the ...

... Nasopharyngeal cancer (NPC)... is my field for the time being... and dun eat salted fish n apparently NPC likes chinese ppl...

Oh ya... my friend wants to promote his voice...

honeymoon period

2009-01-22T02:50:00.001+10:00

reading journals, trips to NUS and biopolis and read journals...

I'm going to work tomorrow

2009-01-18T23:31:00.004+10:00

=(

Just complaining... but I will...

work heart!

calvin cheryl freddy in sg package

2009-01-14T03:28:00.006+10:00

who resembles the most?

Bringing our neighbours around

Church wedding

Wedding dinner

Love is in the air...

hey 2009

2009-01-08T18:43:00.003+10:00

2008 is a time that I got my rest. Though 10 months is a short span of time, I do enjoyed every moment of it. Be it good or bad, we need to move forward. Leave the past with nothing left behind and move into the future with full expectancy and faith. Yes... I got my degree but I'm not satisfied of where I am now. I have to change my thinking, increase my capacity for even more great things to come, be even more sensitive to the people around me, to be even more hardworking, pray more, read His word more, give more, to be more healthy... and so on... Yes... I have to keep on walking with God.

Brand New Year

2009-01-07T02:18:00.011+10:00

Gliding down from 6000 feet plus above amid the cool misty mountains calmed the nerves down especially city dwellers like us. I do wished the ride was forever but not really anymore. Sounds depressing right? Not really though. I miss the lifestyle in the land downunder.

2009 is the best year yet to be. New challenges, new job scope, new skills to acquire, new insights to develop...

New level of work requires greater responsibilities. Grrr... Lol... Im drilling that conviction in my heart.

Education: Knowledge is POWER.

Creativity: We have been set free by the power of the Holy Spirit, thus the freedom of His redemptive power in us.

Character: Live by CONVICTIONS. Be better this year than last year.

Ultimately...

Proverbs 16:9 (NIV)

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.

带我走

Some thoughts before the year ends

2008-12-28T03:40:00.003+10:00

You gotta to dream big. Have visions in your life. Cultural mandate. N so forth... This service do reminded me of His presence and the various happenings in my life this year 2008. Yes. Do not be fearful. Fearful of how people look and think of you. A few incidents this year has really caused me to be fearful which I know I shouldn't be as by right, we should have faith in God. I know I gotta to be tactful and be sensitive of how various kinds of ppl will react even the advice was meant well. Well, but then, imperfection always tend to materialize when things happen, and fear creeps in. Yes... Fear of losing this friend etc. The feeling was undescribable and well... I'm still praying that there will be completely no barriers. You know why I say that? Just felt that it is unsettling even though it seems to be normal outside. Yes and I'm praying for restoration.

Yup. Sometimes when ppl may mistaken you thinking that why you say that, why you do that, even if you are doing the right thing of reminding the person, you can become the enemy. For you, would you keep in your heart and keep to yrself when you feel that u r supposed to tell him or her even though the truth hurts? I know it is difficult but u just have to let the person know. In the end, by just looking at how's the reaction can determine the capacity and the maturity in God. We always learn from God that we need to change inside out, meaning inward change of heart will have an outward change of your attitude, lifestyle n yr outward expression of life. Yea... it will bug me if i keep to myself. There is a price to pay but I know that i'm helping the person to grow. N I'm believing God will turn things around for good for those who love Him.

Dream big. Have big visions for your life and you have to pray and ask God for them. Confirmation and confirmation and confirmation. Whether it is your calling, your responsibility, your vision, your dream, you have to go down to the basics. Prayer. Word of God. Spiritual counselling.

I know that I have to continue to be hardworking in my career which is necessary for my field. At the same time, humble. Always ask when you do not know. I believe we can always learn something good from the people around you. We always have to think of and look at the bigger picture. Yes surely and surely and surely we will be beaten down tired and lethargic during our pursue of our calling, dreams or visions, we just have to fix our eyes on Him and remind ourselves of the promises for us.

Penetration yet isolation. Salt and light of the earth... Reminders that I have to remind myself for the years ahead.

Thanksgiving List

2008-12-27T00:34:00.005+10:00

I'm trying to recall to my utmost ability. Random orders randomly before I fly away.

Thanks...

Thanks Miguel for your vouchers! They are useful at this very moment.

Thanks Keith and Willy for the CD. Haven't listen yet. I guess I will like it. Hopefully. Haha. Yea. Thanks Willy once again for your buffet dinner and the photoframe at the Swissotel. Truly enjoyed it. =D

Thanks Erika for your muffin or cookies? It is nice and the very creative card tag with it.

Thanks Daryl for your CD. No need to burn liao. Just in time.

Thanks Xingni for the cookies. The almond taste is fine so don't have to worry abt it. N yes Keith is no 1 in certain areas... I mean the opposite of good aspects. lol

Thanks Samuel for your chocolates. Hope to get to know you better.

Thanks Evelyn for your Meiji chocolates! Almost forgotten! Haha.

Thanks Ivan for your Australia-Nike jacket! Though it is a little big, still can wear in places which are cold. It has been great bumping into you in Brisbane. Though during the first few weeks being your neighbour, we are so near yet so far until Joel brought us closer through cooking at your house. And yes, you are the one who usher me into the Durham household which was really pai sei for me initially but thank God I have thick skin but THIN HEART. So yes, pls dun always act so nonchalent but I know you do have a good heart. Yup. I see you in Singapore next month!

Thanks Edward for your kangaroo and some glowy spiky balls frm Cairns! I see u soon!

Thanks Phoebe for your egg tarts! You know what? I only ate 3 of them and left the rest in the fridge. I wanted to carry with me for my stomach during the 6000 miles plus airflight but everything was so rushy and in the end, I remember when Im on my way to the airport. Yea. Sorry abt that. Yes. I ate the 3 new-zealanded chocolates. Shd be nice. Cldnt rem the taste. But it is the sincere thoughts that I appreciated. Thanks for teaching how to make egg tarts. Do send me the recipe!

Thanks June for your Roche White chocolates coated with coconut shreds and yr Xmas card. Yes. It is Raffaello. I mean the brand or the name of the chocolates. Moreover, thanks for your cooking and your good food from you and your COUSIN. Yup. I rem the teriyaki SALMON. Nowadays more younger ppl like to term it yummylicious. Yea... whatever that you are doing for Him, we all can see the effort that you have been sowing. Your harvest is reaping soon!

Thanks Rebecca and Lydia for the belt and wallet. And your cooking sometimes! Yr fried rice is good but too much sesame oil. And Lydia, believe that you will find a great job despite of the economic gloom. Dun fret. Let God lead your way.

Thanks Fuifui for your Ferrero Collection and card as well! Still waiting for u and yr future best housemate for some AC thingy. So long liao. I dun want liao. Heh. lol. Anyway cant fellowship with u next yr and yes, I know you will do well and shine for the marketplace to penetrate the marketplace and wats the next line? You know it!

Thanks Shannen for passing the gift to Edward despite of how busy you are (I think shd be)

Thanks Trista and Steve for your UQ T-shirt! At least Im bringing back something back specially made in UQ besides the cert, experience and Sharon/Huimin/their family UQ polo-Tshirt. I do wear it sometimes. Yea. Do stay in contact since both of you are not Singaporeans. I love HK and Guangzhou! though I havent been there but soon in the future.

Thanks Jesse for your dinner. Dun think that Im ill treating him when he is in Singapore. I treated him like a King.

Thanks Ruth for taking the time to make the collage. Yea. It is pain-stakingly hand-drawn and made.

Hmm... Shd be like this. If not, pls remind me. ok? Well... gifts are not only the channels to express yr appreciation and love and kindness and friendship etc. It is more than just that. Investment of genuine time and effort are the most important ones. YEa... thanks for the rest of you... yes YOU peeps and folks for the friendships! You will always be remembered! =D

And not forgetting the ones mentioned in the previous entries this year!

Fiinally, thank you Lord for a job next month! It is truly You that found me!

a fallen world

2008-12-20T03:32:00.002+10:00

Appreciate what you have now.

Listen to what he has to say.

Yes. We can change the world a better place.

Thx uncle Albert auntie Helen Huimin Sharon auntie 秋芳

2008-12-10T01:03:00.008+10:00

Looks like some family protrait... haha... not really... Left to right: Huimin, Auntie 秋芳 (Huimin's mummy), Alan, Sharon, Auntie Helen and Uncle Albert (Parents of Sharon). These great folks came to brisbane not becos of me but becos of Sharon's graduation and Auntie 秋芳 missed her daughter very much. I mean they came specially for my graduation. U noe wat i mean. LOL. Anyway These ppl have awesomeness in their blood. Haha... oh ya. one more thing i will never forget. Sharon is a professional gown donner! With safety pins and her nimble fingers, woah... u will be prince and princess within minutes. Thks Sharon for the help!

Their gifts for me. Cool eh

Card written by Huimin on behalf of the Bryce street peeps n folks

Cute bear from them

Thanks once again!

The rest wait ok!

jesse sg cool shots part I

2008-12-09T13:00:00.006+10:00

Notice the person in brown!

Back to normal

2008-12-09T02:32:00.004+10:00

Time really flies very fast. One blink and one day is gone.

It is always sad to see people leaving. Have been emoing for the past few hrs after jesse left. The rest are singaporeans so still can see dem in sg but for those frm other countries... well... it is either i go or they come.

You will only start to cherish the friends when they leave. So pls cherish everyone that is around u.

I guess the 10 mere months in Brisbane has been a very experiential experience which has indeed soothed my nerves down after 2 yrs of hectic stress. Friendships were established and every relationship that I have in Brisbane is something that I can capture in my memories. Even though studies were kinda of heavy during the 2 semesters, I would say it is not comparable to those in SG. Working with locals during the internship in IMB has opened my eyes to see the real world of research and mingle with the local community. I believe that watever was done or performed in Aussie will not be in vain.

Thanks for everyone in Brisbane who has made my life smoother. Even though you may be just a passerby or acquaintance or someone who just stay a while, I would say everyone is impt to me. New season new ppl. They can shape and mould u and out of it, u will grow and mature. Yea... thanks for EVERYONE. I stressed again EVERYONE esp J1 and a few affilated ones (eg durham hsehold) has left something in my heart. Yea... I miss u ppl. Tats y the shedding of tears is for u ppl.

Goodbye Jesse. You are greatly missed

Do well in UK, moh.

Leaving

2008-12-08T04:34:00.003+10:00

People leave for a reason. To pursue their dreams and visions. To reunite with their friends and families.

Jesse is gg back soon. K Moh is gg to UK for his career. Shannen is gg back brissy for summer. All at the same day but different destinations.

Yea... will surely miss these ppl.

Be connected ok

Pace of life

2008-12-07T02:36:00.004+10:00

Man... Singapore's pace of life is fast... U can just sense the presence of stress and hasty quickness in the atmosphere. Sounds scary? no lah. Just still love the breezy brissy.

When I step into the T1 when I came back, I was kinda of surprised to see so many out there. Thanks peeps. So happily I tot it is gg to be a new start. YES it is gg to be a brand new start.

Warm and humid. Ppl walks fast and I guess Im walking fast as well and its everywhere esp train stations and bus interchanges. Yes peak hrs have to squeeze but so far still pretty much space to breathe.

I guess previously before I came to Australia, I was really x 10000 tired almost to the brim of exhaustion but thank God for His sustaining power. U guys shd noe y. So well, Keith said I do looked different, not the size but rather the "presence". Aussie is a plc that open up my eyes and thinking. But now.... not so sure whether it can be sustained long enough. Ha... stress level seems high in Sg and I have to pursue my passion visions n dreams which can be draining in the long run. But I believe God has a great future for me and u.

Svc was gd and Im glad emo fish enjoyed as much as Hillsong conference. Yes. God spoke to me thru svc. I miss the strong presence of God. Indeed a day in the house of God is better than a thousand days

Pretty much like tat. Changi Village, Vivo, Seah food centre, suntec, raffles, chc, orchard. ya. its always gd to serve ppl.

wheeeee

2008-12-06T03:21:00.003+10:00

Time flies. Definitely I'm not satisfied of where I am now. Not saying that having a degree is not gd but rather we shd always seek for improvement. Never stop where u r now. ALways constantly craves for knowledge and life skills to propel yourself forward in the marketplace while helping the ppl ard to move on as well and to be the salt and light of the city.

Ok anyway, i have graduated! No more exams unless Im gg to do coursework in the future but most likely not. Probably will. Not so sure though.

Interviews went pretty well and gd. Watever there are any 2nd rounds of interviews, I have to keep myself opened. I believe in His plan for me. God is good. I get something substantial from the PI during the 40 mins interview. Woah... Revelation? I have to pray abt it.

Bringing emo fish is tiring. So picky sometimes.

Ok. I will still continue to give thxgiving to the brissy folks. but not now.

c4k volunteers jiayou!

感谢你们。。。是的布里斯本的你们。。。

2008-12-04T12:06:00.004+10:00

Hey peeps, I'm back in Singapore safe and sound. in one piece. Yes I know you know abt the crying scandal issue. Pls. I didnt CRY. I just SHED a FEW DROPS of tears. Well... Im sure u understand. It was not easy to get to Brisbane and going back seems to be not an easy task due to emotional tangles and future studies... and reverse culture shock syndrome seems to be materializing. No more laidback lifestyle anymore. grrr... and YES, I got interviews tmr! DO keep me in prayers!

Ok. Thanksgiving list. Actually the farewell dinner its on-the-spot thingy and it's brief.

Ok. Housemates first by alphabetical order.

Edward. I didnt't do farewell cards not becos I dun like you but becos the laminating machine something wrong so in the end I can only do for 5 ppl. Same for hak as well. Anyway, bro, thanks for being such a good housemate and roomate. Thanks for really giving me the space sometimes for eg dun play drums when im studying or allowing me to switch the tablelamp when u r sleeping but in the end i switched off cos im considerate. Thanks for many many things. small and big. u noe it and i no need to say it out. Yes. will miss you man. thanks once again.

Hak. Thanks for collecting the rent. You dun push us and I have to push u. Which is gd. no pressure. And staying with you makes me appreciate you even more. Yes. This sentence speaks a thousand words. No need flowerery languages. No need long bombastic words.

Edward and Hak. I do apologise for any offences and misunderstandings during my stay with u folks. Watever is it, let's bury our hatchet (if there is any) and move on to a brighter future. Lolx.

The rest wait ok?

Forgiveness

2008-11-28T17:20:00.001+10:00

Go and read Jeanine's blog.

Do think abt it...

Practice what you preach

2008-11-26T06:30:00.003+10:00

What happens in the spirtual realm does have an effect in the physical realm. By just observing how the person speaks, dress, act or basically the first impression, you can somehow rather know the spiritual level. Perhaps not 100% accurate but these factors can be determining factors of the reflection of His glory especially when we are called to be the salt and light of the world. By just looking at the words he is speaking, is the person edifying God? Out of the heart the mouth speaks.

Luke 6:45

The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.

Ouch... the 1st sentence was really strong but thats what the children of God should be awared of it rather than living a life of oblivion and ignorance. No point listening to the pastor where you dun even make the desire or decision to change yourself. You gotta to be someone who is Christ-like. Yes no one can be perfect but dun ever use imperfection as an excuse.

Sometimes when ppl slouch during preaching be it cg/lg n svc, ppl utter discouraging negative words, ppl make fun of others in an adverse mean ways, man... do u find it provoking? Yes I do. It really shows your attitude towards God and the Holy Bible.

Sunita mentioned abt intentional effort. Yes. The daily bread is not sufficient. Read the bible. Do self-BS. Read more books. Find out more abt the Holy Spirit. Do not ever stop where you are. Step out and apply what u have learnt. No pt storing all the information where u dun make full use of it. Rem that u are a child of God. We are supposed to shine for God in the marketplace. Hello? Do you want to see your unsaved friends saved or perished in the hands of darkness? wow... sound so holy. pls. evangelism is in our blood.

Well, if this entry seems to be speaking to u, or u feel tat there's an ouch or a nudge, go and do something about yr own life. It is never too late. We need to grow. Cant always stay at the same old level unless u r really really very old. Well, depends. Elderly ppl nowadays are very fervent to God. So in conclusion, always make an effort to move up in God.

It's just in one of my tots. There're a few but cldnt rem.

Waking up so early is becos to check out my final sem results. Not too bad. I predicted the grades quite accurately. I dreamt I got 7755 and it is quite vivid but when I wake up, I cldnt rem. Yes. Im eligible to graduate.

1 Dec Monday 2pm at UQ centre.

3 Dec Wednesday 1.30pm flight. I tink.

Ok. Gg off to sunshine coast and fraser island soon in 2 hrs time.

Highlights of Asia Conference

2008-11-23T13:32:00.004+10:00

Luke 16: 19 - 23

God is magnified in the prosperity in His servants.

You will not be poor forever in your life. Abide in His word and follow Him the rest of your life, you will be rich.

A man wounded was ignored by the rich man. No. Be sensitive to the needs of the poor, wounded and the needy. Not just this category of people, but everyone around you.

Pastor Phil Pringle: "... Speak words of LIFE."

Eze 37: 1 - 3

You need the impartation of the power of God in your life.

Tongues is the evidence of the baptism of the Holy Spirit. You will find yourself plunge in the darkness but with the Holy Spirit within you, you can change situations around and turn darkness into light.

You need to do something when you are in a valley of dry bones.

Don't stop. Keep walking. No trials last forever. It is only a season. It is the endurance that builds in your soul.

Exo 6:9

Why are the bones dry?

They have lost hope.

They have a wounded spirit (Broken spirit Pro 17:22, Cut spirit Ps 64:3, Bruised Isa 42:3, Poisoned Ps 140:3)

Forgive those who hurt you. No one owes you everything.

Speak to the valley.

The church is the answer.

Luke 24: 1 - 5

Anastasis gr Resurrection (Means to stand up)

It is your spirit that is to be resurrected.

The Dead (The Old, The Negative 1 John 1:5)

"In the last 10 minutes, Phil Pringle preached briefly from Ezekiel on the power of confession in creating the conditions of one’s world, keeping the focus of what one is called for and remembering the revelation of one’s identity in God. These principles he said, stemmed forth from a life that was Jesus-centered, evidenced through time given in prayer and solitude in God’s presence, which was the penultimate key in bringing one into his or her fullest destiny."

Please go to http://www.attributes.com.sg/ to watch the full sermon.

Well... along the way, I was browsing some of the articles online on Asia Conference and some sentences do caught my attention.

"In the same way we put on warm layers when we go out in the cold, the key to being in the world and not of it is insulation, which prevents the environment from having an effect on our body. In the same way, strong spiritual disciplines serve to keep philosophies that are against God’s ways out of our lives, and keep our spiritual principles — which preserve our holiness — in."

"Our highest calling as a child of God is to draw near to God and know Him in the fullness of His being."

"The life of God is in every believer through the Holy Spirit who dwells in us. With Him comes an infinite supply of power, wisdom, divine love, strength, joy and peace. When obstacles seem insurmountable, He gives us the faith and grace to overcome. When forgiveness is too hard for one to give, the Holy Spirit helps us in our weaknesses."

"....let go of the ‘I’-factor, ie self-centredness, and begin to live a life for God and in God through the help of the Holy Spirit. Having the garbage out of our lives, the Holy Spirit can work more freely and mightily in us for God’s glory."

No more paper cards

2008-11-17T02:27:00.006+10:00

Look at Rachel's bday video

Look at mine 5 mths ago! + J1 song

emoing

2008-11-17T01:12:00.002+10:00

Something to do with disappointment. When you get disappointed, the reason mainly because the expectation is much lower than what you expected. And you just have to live with it unless there is positive change involved.

Recently, one issue just popped out lately. A little discomfort and it just keep on twirling within my heart. Ard there. I know I have to pray abt it.

Things seem rosy when feet is stepped upon Aussie. But well... God always challenges us through ppl, situations, events etc esp when your life is opened to everyone. Definitely there is a tinge of vulnerability and that's where you gotta to guard your heart and be discerning. It's hard. But the Holy Spirit is there to help us.

I know I gotta to do something substantial for the next 17 days. I guess...

happy bday kaka fuifui

2008-11-14T01:26:00.008+10:00

Rachel (Fuifui) and her mate Debbie. Now powerpact Shannen takes over your throne.

Poor Debbie... Let rachel's pix takes the upper row cos Shannen never invite me to rachel's surprise bday. oops...

Future Harvesters. "Debbie, Shannen is the one in red."

Her forever Peace

again with the loving Great Court in UQ as the backdrop

Ivan (Kaka) holding his bday waterproof UNO H2O. We can play later.

Tiramisu cake from Indro.

Got cross on her bedsheet. So cool lah...

Pork trotters for 10 cents + free bedsheet for yr children

kaka + fuifui = ka fui (Garfield)

Happy 46th bday kafui!

and Happy 50th belated bday Euquin and Eve!

24

2008-11-12T15:58:00.001+10:00

I HAVE SOMETHING GREAT TO SHOW UUUUUU

2008-11-06T18:55:00.003+10:00

YES. IT'S YOU. Dun look around. Look straight.

What is it that so great?

Click me!

Cool rite!

Yea... do rem!

Regret

2008-10-31T01:36:00.002+10:00

Whatever I saw the fruit of my labor, 2 kinds of feelings: Satisfaction yet regretful. Satisfied of my hard work with a spirit of excellence but yet regretful for not placing my best foot forward at the very last minute due to the stupidity of assumption.

Opportunity comes once but fail to grab hold of it. I can blame the girl. Ultimately I have to blame myself. If I choose to prepare myself well, that wouldnt happened and even if it happened, I know that my conscience will not bug me. I guess God wants me to know something: Don't assume.

The only thing that I can look forward is a 7 for this course. If it's 6, I have nothing to say.

Hmm... still in the midst of swallowing. The email nearly broke my heart.

Sounds like BGR. It's my project.

=(

Inequity

2008-10-28T20:31:00.002+10:00

An unfair circumstance. Tats the definition.

Yea. Apparently tats what I was in one of the days last week. Didn't realized that until an email popped out last night.

A hybrid rush of emotions. All my hopes were collapsed within seconds. Whatever I have done so much with good and encouraging comments were encapsulated by just 10 mins or less and thrown off to disintegration.

I will be expected to see the person who has indirectly brought me to such treatment. Tats how bad it is.

God brought me so far until last wk and everything changed dramatically. I have to even trust Him even further. Not the other way round.

Still swirling in my mind... Unable to swallow it.

2008-10-28T18:58:00.004+10:00

CHC members in Brisbane

I miss my copper-red hair...

His Power

2008-10-25T02:18:00.002+10:00

We have power. That's not enough. We REPRESENT power.

Yes. Represent the authority of Jesus through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Read A R Bernard's article on the intimacy with the Holy Spirit.

5

2008-10-20T02:04:00.002+10:00

Five more days and one will be freed from the agony of the deadly assignments and rpts. Yes I can do it WELL.

CHC svc msg was mind-blowing today. Our mind can tell us a lot of things but it is up to you whether you choose to believe it. So think of positive things. Visualize yrself with visions.

Esp when the world is facing with an impending crisis. Apparently it is.

Open doors Im praying. Whether is it in Australia, Brisbane or Singapore. You lead me.

I place my trust in You.

Posterized

2008-10-18T02:40:00.008+10:00

After walking this idyllic pathway to the lab (imagine the rustling music of the palm tree leaves, the different shades of shadows along the concrete slabs that enhance the sensitivity of your senses)

After passing this automated door...

My camera died... Anyway, thats not the main point... Entering this door countless of times,

My baby was born!

Look closely

again

nice name.

That's God! Not that I am God. But God is always behind this poster. Not physically behind this poster but mentally and physically supporting all the way for 4 days. night and day. endless reading of journals. plus the tot-provoking devb rpt due on yesterday. Man... having sleepless nights made me miss morning lectures. grrr... my sch fees is spend on bed this wk. horrible feeling. guilty conscience. I make sure I DO WELL FOR MOLECULAR MECHANISMS OF DEVELOPMENT. die die must score though its v v v v challenging.

This poster is a great testimony of His grace and power. From a zero project to something that's substantial. Nice mentors. Thx Tim and Brad for their encouraging comments. Praise God.

Another twin baby has to be born on next Thursday

Final last one on next FRIDAY!

2 weeks of intense revision.

Followed by one week of intense exams.

Ivan's and Rachel's bday!

Road trip hopefully.

Work?

Home sweet home!

2008-10-12T03:27:00.004+10:00

A glimpse of one irksome assignment that I have been trying to figure out almost a whole day. Really unproductive btw...

ok. my DATA (pronounced as DA-TA, not they-ta) in my section was focused on

Dkk1!

This secreted protein is a Wnt inhibitor! Wnt! wat special name! mind you. as Wnt signaling pathway is necessary and required for hair bud formation. so all yr hairs depend on it.

so well... when this Wnt pathway goes to the path of insanity, tumors and cancer will sprout. Basal cell carcinoma (BCC) can be a consequence.

ooo... sounds easy. not at all. numerous genes, proteins, transcription factors are involved in the pathway and doing a critique... ooo... man... brain juice is leaking out from nostrils and ear holes.

wat wnt affects shh or reverse temporal relationship or watever.

its gg to last till 23rd oct...

grrr

Fifty plus

2008-10-11T03:19:00.002+10:00

Apparently I have around 53 or 54 days left here unless God opens doors. I do hope so esp when recession is hitting the sg economy and the recent exchange rate seems to be treating unfairly to the sg-aussie students. Well... ultimately it all happens for a good reason. It's difficult to comprehend the whole situation but then it is a time that you gotta to grip even closer to Him.

11th Oct 08 (Sat) Molecular Mechanisms of Development Individual Rpt + Poster Outline

12th Oct 08 (Sun) Poster + Research Rpt + DEVB 3002 Grp Rpt

Tats the agenda of my weekends.

just an observation

2008-10-10T15:16:00.004+10:00

everywhere i go, i will always meet "elite" students from primary sch all the way till even now. Well, uq is not too bad though there's a couple. from primary sch, most of them went to top schools. from secondary sch, most of them went to nus, ntu. from jc, most of them went to nus sci as i studied bio/chem and most of them did quite alright/well in their Os. Well, im the odd one. cant get in to life sci n end up somewhere in some dumping grd which i shdnt say cos i heard its a bit difficult to get in but not tat difficult to get in. from poly, surprising, i tot its supposedly to be easy but end up different from my expected. sp biotech most of them are 6, 7, 8 pointers. very intense competition as the system works in a bell-curve manner so end up being an average student. Some of them are naturally intelligent. Some of them are really hardworking and very kiasu. These ppl end up getting As, dean list, awardees etc. All of them ended up in local uni except a few. Anyway, tats a few yrs ago. Even in army, the ppl tat i noe are from top jc but tats during bmt and sispec. After tat not tat many. So went to the working society tats where i find peace. no competition. just $$$ and passion. but then... there's a need of advancement in life. So went to uq where i met all the ngee anners and spians in sci faculty. Well... getting into these 2 polys not easy at all so again hanging out with some of them, they will say "Wow... you get 7776... some 7666, some 7665, some 6665." fyi 7 is the highest accolade/higher distinction. B4 i came here, i perceived aussie is a land of freedom and relaxation but end up working day and night chionging assignments. One gd thing is that theres no bell curve, theres only 4 course modules per sem. the rest is pretty much the same, quite similar std for sci. So well, its gd to meet these ppl. at least it tells u tat u r in a recognised sch.

sigh

EXAMS

2008-10-07T19:23:00.005+10:00

BIOL3002 Ecology of Disease
10/11/2008 (Monday) 2:30pm

DEVB3002 Molecular Mechanisms of Development
12/11/2008 (Wednesday) 11:15am

BIOC3003 Human Molecular Genetics and Diseases
13/11/2008 (Thursday) 2:30pm

Keep these dates in yr prayer list! Thx!

random photos again...

2008-10-04T01:56:00.007+10:00

Mt Tam-boo-rine

lantern festival (abrupt one)

More photos coming up...

Introducing...

2008-10-01T01:27:00.005+10:00

THE ESV STUDY BIBLE!

recommended by Joel Tay

Looks gd rite?

Xmas coming soon...

Actually Hari Raya today but too late and Im in aussie too ex...

New yr oso can

Stewardship

2008-09-28T13:14:00.005+10:00

Matt 25:14 - The parable of the talents

Be careful to observe His word to get into His abundance.
God works according to a pattern based on a principle.
Stewardship.
It is His goods that you managed.
Can He trust you with the huge assets that He is going to give you?
God is a giver, not a taker.
God never test you in the much. He always test you in a little.
If He found you faithful in the least, He will bless you with the much.

Luke 19:17

'Because you have been trustworthy in a very small matter, take charge of ten cities.'

Influence, authority, leadership not just wealth.
God wants to test us in a little.
Have a mentality in stewardship.
Your mindset can determine your success or failure.
Beware of covetousness - strong desire of taking things from others that doesnt belong to you. It can lead to greed.

Luke 12:21

A steward = a manager/redistributer/caretaker of the assets and possessions that belonged to God.
God owes everything in life. Ps 24:1
Carry this mentality in your own life.

1 Chronicles 29:1-5, 10-12, 14

2 billion US dollars to build the temple. (Modern context)
Everything that I have belongs to God.
God tests you in the little before He allows you to have the much.
Feed the hungry, give hope to the hopeless, share the good news in your generation...

1 Cor 4:2

Our stewardship must be tested.
Dun limit your thinking.
He wants you to handle $
Will you be found faithful in the assets that He has placed in your hands?
Be liked David.
Tithe - One tenth of your increase.
Unequal amt but equal commitment.
Promptness and diligence in paying your tithe will be tested in your faithfulness/stewardship.
Do not expect withdrawals from God if you do not even make deposits in Him.

Luke 12:21 - 31

Life is more than bread and butter.
God will take care of that. Dun spend your energy worrying these stuff. If you are more concerned in your daily survival, you can be losing your stewardship.
Your assets will be added exponentially. God wants you to have the character and responsibility and maturity and capacity to handle the increase.
Seed time and harvest.

2 Cor 9:6 - 11

God will prosper you more so that you can serve His purpose more.
God doesn't wants you to live in limitedness.
Multiply your giving. Increase your sowing.
Seek God first.

Notes jotted down during CHC online svc. Pls go to www.attributes.com.sg for the full version after Wednesday.

time multiplier...

2008-09-28T00:18:00.005+10:00

BIOC3003 Human Molecular Genetics PBL Literature Review (Sun - Mon)
DEVB3002 Molecular Mechanism of Development Take Home SDL (Tue)
DEVB3002 Molecular Mechanism of Development Literature Review (Group and individual rpt) (Wed)
SCIE3012 Research Rpt (Thur onwards)
Poster
Lab book

Kill the spirit of complacency!

Becoming a contagious christian

2008-09-27T15:26:00.005+10:00

Was reading one of the chapters from the mentioned-titled-book above tackling relationships with people.

Some sentences did remind me something. One of them is...

".............we need to be on the offense rather than the defense."

This section is focusing on spiritual danger when you are hanging with irreligious people. But well... do not be influenced by them but rather you are the one who is the dominant force that will influence them cos we are the salt of the earth and light of the world which we are called to do so but sadly to say, not all of them practices what they preached. oooo... Anyway, back to the main sentence. Well... I guess this sentence is very general. It speaks to all levels. I would say it's one of the core foundations in God. Im sure each of us sure and obviously meet ppl who tend to be offensive or offensive ppl who like to blurt out offensive words or ppl who are intentionally say offensive words or those who accidentally say something that are offensive. Well... i would say its a little little discomfort. Discouraging a little but well... its alright cos we need to be on the offense rather than the defense. The initial reaction for most ppl will tend to defend themselves or trying to speak up. Unless it is really really serious for eg, something that is unjust abt God or yr dearest fren or something like tat, tat shd be alright. But if its trivial, for eg, some minor things that you dun like and you speak out and keep on repeating, well, it is a little irritating but then we need to be on the offense and not the defense. Always speak words of LIFE. Its not abt yourself. Its abt OTHERS. Read the link below abt the power of words: words can be more powerful than sticks and stones or modern times fist or parang or knife or watever tat is sharp.

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god_article.php?id=7564

Words can be encouraging, fun, positive... I dunno y negativity shd be imbedded in it. Works of the fallen angels? Insecurity? ask yrself lor.

N oso one ting. We shd always make a sincere effort to talk to new ppl. Back in sg when i was a baby christian ready to be molted, i was sitting beside to a girl who's a new visitor at the Jurong West Premises. There's no expo at that time. So well, natural tendency of us is that we tend to mingle friends who are close to you or friends that you know well enough to start a conversation, so in the end I end up talking to those on my left and she's on my right. Only talked to her for a few sentences. My ex-leader was sitting at the opposite. I guess she saw it. After the fellowship in the coffeeshop beside the malay chicken rice, yes i still rem vividly. Got a big time from her and since then, I always talk to new ppl esp nonbelivers. Its really impt. We r building bridges to these ppl which is essential.

f1 grand prix singapore 2008

2008-09-25T03:06:00.003+10:00

28 September 8pm.

woo hoo

night race. 1st in the world. within the city of a city.

Lecture-free wk

2008-09-22T02:51:00.003+10:00

Im trying to aim to finish 4 major-heavy-weightage-and-aggressive lit reviews this wk.

First and foremost, eco of disease 1500 - 1650 words. Almost 1000 words now. Trying to finish by Monday.

Secondly, lit review on sonic hedgehog and Wnt protein which can be found in your skin. specifically the hair follicles. Its a headache. Trying to finish by Wed night.

Thirdly, Molecular mechanisms of development take home exam. Sounds easy but professors arent tat nice at all. I guess the questions reqd thinking. Hopefully not. Trying to finish by Fri night.

Fourthly, human molecular genetics lit review on skin again. apparently. Addressing the highlights and their importance and techniques. Trying to finish by Sunday.

In the midst of all these stuff, I have to clock 2 - 3 hours to do my "research" project from Tue to Fri, not forgetting 1 hr today back in imb.

Lecture-free wk? It's "clearly-defined".

Mid-sem break after that. Have to start pubmedding to ignite the oil when the birds are sleeping. It's like squeezing 1 yr of FYP into 1 limitless-word rpt within 2 wks. Not forgetting one scientific poster where renowned prof/PhD grads will scruitize yr work.

Mid-sem break. Remove the break. Shd call it three-quarter-sem. someting like tat.

From now till last wk of October. Busy.

First 2 wks of November. Exams.

Internship? Probably

Road trips? Possibly.

Travelling ard? Possibly not. No idea.

Going home? God will decide.

randomness

2008-09-17T00:17:00.003+10:00

Lately a number of thoughts have been materializing in my mind and thinking of it... well... it's tiring. No doubt God wants us to think. We have to. I have been trying to be a nice person as possible. to be more christ-like. to practise what we preached. to be more understanding tolerant and so on. I am who I am and I try or I will strive to be a better person each and every single day. Sometimes in my mind do pop out this question: am i trying to please man rather God? Hmm.. hard question. Lol. Well... I guess Im trying to please God otherwise I dun even bothered to talk to ppl. I will try to salvage watever that is left unresolved along the way. In the midst of the heaps of lit reviews n the unprecendented possibilities in the research project tat im undertaking, I wonder where I get the strength from. No doubt it's from God. Saying is easy. Doing is another issue. I was listening to Joyce Meyers podcasts yesterday and something along the interview she mentioned something that produces a resonance in my axons. You can only be changed when you read the word of God or the Bible. Can you be changed if you dun read the Bible? Well.... not exactly the same but more or less similar along that line. Shameful to say. I guess I didnt read enough. I have to blame of myself of wats happening ard me. Well... no pt loving God when you dun even read His word. Tats one of the pathetic predicament that one could face. I have to read more. I have to pray more. We need to be fruitful in our own spiritual lives whether it is praying more, making a difference in our cellgrp/lifegrp, say words of life, be helpful and accomodating to the needs of our friends, forgiving ppl and letting God carry the hurt and be completely be "healed" etc. Ultimately we need to step out of our comfort zone. Anyway, just a random tot.

Have a chat with 1/2 professors and PhD students today. No idea whether God is speaking thru these ppl. Hopefully He is. Really praying for open doors. God, hear me.

Everyday I try to live life with positivity despite the unknown future that Im threading forward each and every single day. No one can really understand. Only God Himself knows what Im gg thru. Well... I guess everyone faces tat. That's life. What separates us from others is that we know that we can rely on Him more than anyone else. Yes we do need friends, close friends, christian friends, leaders but ultimately priority no 1 is God.

Ok. Fullstop.

2008-09-14T23:57:00.002+10:00

7 more weeks to the end of my final semester followed by 2 more weeks of exams. I can't wait to graduate. Woah... The next few weeks will really be packed with literature reviews and research rpts. Man... Need to spend sleepless nights to wipe out all these deadly writings. So yea... write words that can spur me on. Can't really concentrate my assignments in the living room. Yea... I really need to fix my eyes on Jesus Christ during this period of time. Can't afford to lose so much unfruitful time on unfruitful things. No discipline at all despite the fact that my attendance for the early morning lectures improved. No point. What's the point of spending so much money here where you can't appreciate the effort of attending uni? One can learn so much from every professor from BACS faulty. From what I have seen and hear, the quality of these lecturers is top-notched. They are researchers who had made and are making a difference in the clinical science, biotechnology, biomedical, pharmaceutical whatever scene. Why waste time lying on bed unless you are really tired? Be fruitful in all things. Ok. Anyway just need to drill that in my mind from this week onwards. Must really be focused despite all odds.