Healing is all I need

It's 4.15am Singapore time. I can't sleep. All these years of negative thoughts comes from one source - the rifts of my heart. Having a tendency to push/shove/cast these aside with ignorance is not really a wise thing to do. Having to say that, I didn't have the courage to face them either. Reading a few times of awakening the dead plus what A R Bernard has preached serve a great piece of advice but seriously requires a lot from you. No one can help except me myself and God.